New Hair Color!

Helloooo!

Just like promised, here's another post for all you minions! And just like the title suggests, I'm itching for a new hair color... Again....

You see, at Tractor Supply I wasn't allowed to have unnatural hair colors and as most of you know, I enjoy dying my hair ALL OF THE COLORS!!! So naturally, not being able to have it dyed kinda crushed my soul. And that's where we pick up.

My last hair-dying endeavor was last August (REALLY? THAT LONG AGO?!?!?!?) and I actually still have slightly green tips. -ish.

So here I am. Dying to dye my hair again (heh. Puns).

*unfortunately I can't  guarantee the hair change happening, as I also have a wonderful mom who doesn't like my hair dyed as much as she likes it blonde. Alas*

Here's where you come in! I have a few ideas of colors/styles, and I need your input!

1. Purple dip-dye

This is what I was originally leaning towards, but now I'm not so sure. 

2. Blue/ turquoise

In a perfect world (aka a world where my mom doesn't want me to dye all of my hair), this is what I would get. No hesitation. I LOVE this one so incredibly much. <3

3. Silver to turquoise

Yes. So much yes.

4. Blue dip-dye

This is the classic "Anna Hair" that I've done twice now. I still love it, but I need something different this time around.

Any others that you like/recommend for me? Realistically, only 1 or 4 are likely to happen, but I would do 2 or 3 in an instant. Now just to convince my mom... 

So there you have it! Please give me your opinions!!

Live long and prosper and pray that my mom lets me dye my hair pretty colors. :3

Update (Sort of... Thanks, Google).

So, for some unknown reason, the internet decided to publish some weird draft of a previous post and them promptly delete it... Like, really, internet? 

So here I am. giving you a 10 second summery of what it said.

Thank you to all my friends who care about me and checked in! I'm doing a bit better now. :)

The 12th was my last day at Tractor Supply for reasons. Yes, I do kinda miss it in a sentimental kind of way.

I was gone in Silt, CO for 5 days, so that gave me some energy.

My birthday is in 3 days (July 21st), and I'll be 18 (yay).

I'm thinking of dying my hair again (this wasn't in my original post, and there will be a post on that later)!

I think that was pretty much it.

Lots of exciting things going on!

I may post more tonight, so please don't be mad if I spam you. I've had a lot on my mind as of late.

Live long and prosper! I'll try to stop being mad at Google for messing with my posts... *gives Google the death glare*

Hurt

*****Disclaimer*****

This is a guest post by my current depressed state. If you wish to continue and learn more about what's going on in my head, please do. If you're happy with your impression of me, I suggest you read further into what's going on. Feel free to message me, ask questions, whatever, but please also understand that this is the me that has been roaming this Earth for the past 2 months. No, I'm not exactly okay, but I'm getting there.

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Yeah, it hurts.

It hurts when your "friends" don't see (or choose not to see) what you're going through, and choose to leave you out where you would otherwise be welcome.

It hurts to watch your mom and so many people whom you love get trampled on and thrown away, and not know the reason.

It hurts when there's so much going on and you're trying to stay neutral, but constantly feel a pain in your chest like your heart is being ripped to pieces.

It hurts to have anxiety attacks for no reason.

I'm hurt by the situations that are going on.

It hurts to lie in bed every night, wondering if you made the right choices. Wondering why you're having such a hard time in this life. Wondering if things will get better.

It hurts when you start to wonder if you can really trust your friends again, or if it'll be the same situation that has torn your family's friendships apart time and time again.

It hurts when you have no one to turn to because you find yourself putting on a mask every time you see your friends, in fear that they'll misunderstand.

It hurts to never be able to truly have fun, because there's a voice in your head that's constantly reminding you of all the mistakes- all of your problems and stress- that cause you to spiral downwards again. 

Life hurts like nothing else.

The best we can do is attempt to get through it.

Do our best, and give happiness a fighting chance.

But when happiness is hard to find, you have to keep fighting.

I guess that's the only thing to do. Hope it gets better. Hold out for when you can truly be happy again. Because for me, it doesn't feel like it'll be soon.

Live long and prosper.

That's it.

Stress

Hey, minions! Quick post before I run out the door to work (I got a job by the way, but that's for another post). Anyway, I have a question/request for all of you:

What do you do when you're stressed?

Do you have a quote that always brings you back to reality and encourages you? Do you turn into a non-productive potato who survives on tea and Netflix? I wanna know! 

Reason for this question: this past week has quite possible been the most stressful week of my entire life. Anyone who has had the unfortunate fate to be around me these past couple days knows how crabby and on edge I've been. Luckily, school ends Monday and then I'll just be working. Which will be a relief.

ALSO- if you'd like to leave me something that will maybe cheer me up a bit (a quote, a funny story, a picture of Superman epically beating Batman.....*cough*.....) and make me feel like the world isn't imploding, it'd be GREATLY appreciated! You all always know how to make me smile. :)

Sorry- it was a really short post, as I'm about to eat and run.

Live long and prosper. We got this.

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Happy Black Day!

HAPPY BLACK DAY, EVERYONE! 

So in Korea, they have Valentine's Day on February 14th, White Day on March 14th, and Black day on April 14th. Lemme break them down for you:

February 14th: Valentine's Day- In Korea, it's tradition for girls to give their boyfriend/guy they like chocolate (not much different that US Valentine's Day, but it's mostly the day for specifically the girls to be brave).

March 14th: White Day- Similar to Valentine's day, but this time it's the guys who are being brave and giving their girlfriend/girl they like chocolate. Apparently Korea loves chocolate and love... XD

April 14th: Black Day- And here's what we're celebrating today! It's also known as "Single's Day", and it's pretty much just as it sounds. All those love sick humans got 2 months of celebration, and now it's our turn. On Black Day, singles eat black bean noodles, drink black coffee, wear black etc... in mourning for their poor, single lives. They probably also watch K-dramas and eat ice cream. I hope they do, because that sounds fantastic right about now.

Now go out there and celebrate your single-ness! And if you're not single, well, don't. But please leave us in peace to have a day for a pity-party, eh?

Live long and prosper and LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED!!

*makes cat toys for my kitties in order to prepare for my years ahead as a crazy cat lady*

Yo Ho, Yo Ho, a Pirate's Life for Me

Ahoy!

The moment none of you have been waiting for:

I've finally decided what I'm going to do with me life.

You see, I was recently told about a program at MIT where ye can get a "Pirate" certificate. So I thought, "Why not?"

I've decided to be a professional pirate- complete with pillaging, old Spanish treasure, and epic coats.

How will I do this, you ask?

Well, I recently found out that my great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great grandfather had a cousin who's wife's son's 3rd cousin twice removed on his mother's side inherited a tiny little pirate ship from his father's cousin's butler. So really, piracy is in me blood.

I realize that I've never sailed across any oceans, I'm not terribly good with a sword (although, I did train as a Jedi in a past life), and I don't have a crew yet. I have, however, seen "Pirates of the Caribbean" a few times, so I'm pretty much an expert on all matters "pirate".

I will be captain of the ship "The Wandering Night" (other name suggestions can be commented below, but seeing as this is a monarchy, I'll be deciding everything), and my dear comrade Elizabeth Holmes will be Co-Captain. She's too good for the title of "First Mate".

If you'd like to apply to be part of me crew, please see below. We're currently hiring a First Mate, deck swabbers, canon firerers, and a couple assorted deck hands. That reminds me, I need to ask Elizabeth Holmes if she is indeed willing to join my crew. I suppose I'm also hiring a secretary to keep up with all my important appointments. Parrots are suggested, but not required, as are wooden legs, eye patches, and tattoos (extra points if they're sea-related).

The job pays in gold doubloons and bragging rights, but is entirely based on how much we plunder that given day/week. The better you are at plundering, the more you'll make, and the more bragging rights you'll earn.

Applicants must be prepared to leave their homes, livelihood, and families to join me for an exciting life at sea. Please consider this before applying.

Captain is not responsible for injuries or death.

Note: my name is not "Captain Jack Lucian" and my ship is not "The Sudden Death". How dare they disrespect me?

Fill out the application and return it to me. You will be informed by gunshot if you're someone we could sail with for months on end.

 One shot: Yes

Two shots: No

Please keep one ear listening for your answer. You will not be informed twice. And be sure to be at the dock at the appropriate time- we leave at dawn.

Any questions can be sent to I, your Capt'n.

May th' wind be ever in ye sails and the Jolly Roger be ever flying above ye.

And be sure to have a jolly April first.

Music

Hello, lovelies! How are things? I needed a break from studying, so here's a post for ya'll! That was weird. I should never say "ya'll". Anywho.......

This is all about music and the memories/feelings it procures. Weird, quirky ones, ones that make you reminisce, ones that make you cry; we're hitting everything here.

First of all, how weird is music? Like you listen to something awesome/sad/crazy/etc... and your brain immediately links it to an emotion or memory (think Inside Out...). Isn't that just so weird? Am I the only one who is amazed by this? Yes? Okay then. Thanks, brain for this weird idea.

There are weird connections (at least for me) between songs and memories/feelings. For example: "Lost Boy" by Ruth B. makes me terribly sad because of a dance recital last year, the song "Heathens" by Twenty One Pilots reminds me of New Mexico, and "Sherlock" by SHINee still causes excitement because that was their opening song when I saw them in LA. 😁

Music is amazing because it makes you feel the emotions that you were feeling at that time when you heard it. I can have the song "Blank Space" by Taylor Swift stuck in my head, and immediately think of Hawaii (that song came out while I was living in Hawaii, and it was kinda the theme song of a couple months there... That is, before Kpop kicked in... XD)

There was one event that sparked this post:

The day after Tiny Kitten was taken, my mom and I went makeup shopping (because how else do you deal with saddness?). I tried my best not to look like I'd been crying for an entire day, and had to choke back tears like 100 times. On the way home, we were listening to music, and the song "Photograph" by Ed Sheeran came on (you can probably predict what's going to happen). Wow. I made it halfway through the song, and before I knew it, I was bawling again (getting soaked by a faulty gas pump didn't help either). It was a rough car ride the rest of the way.

Flash forward to a couple days ago. I'm sitting in the car, on the way back from an awesome day (and by awesome, I mean we went to Chick-fil-a AND Hobby Lobby). I was in a GREAT mood, everything was amazing. But then, lo and behold, "Photograph" comes on the radio. It's such a fun song to sing, so of course I was singing. And then I remembered that day when I couldn't get Tiny Kitten out of my head. And, you guessed it, I was crying again. In fact, I'm not sure I'll ever be able to listen to that song without crying or at least missing my Tiny Kitten.

Isn't music just insane? How can something that's just vibrations make your heart skip a beat, or make you want to dance or even just make you want to sing it?

 Music is something that's always been there for me. Unlike the rest of my family, I don't exactly enjoy playing instruments. I LOVE singing, but I'm not too keen on the whole playing music thing. I can listen, sing, and dance all day, though. So that's what I stick to at the moment.

Music is really weird. You can stat listening to a sad, whiny love song, and start missing relationships that you never had and a non-existent love interest. How funny is that??

Well, I'm off to dance some. I almost have this choreography down!!

What have been some of your favorite/saddest/most exciting memories involving music?

 Live Long and Prosper, and if I'm ever having a bad day, BLARE EPIC KOREAN RAP/DANCE MUSIC!! YASSSSS!!!!