New Hair Color!

Helloooo!

Just like promised, here's another post for all you minions! And just like the title suggests, I'm itching for a new hair color... Again....

You see, at Tractor Supply I wasn't allowed to have unnatural hair colors and as most of you know, I enjoy dying my hair ALL OF THE COLORS!!! So naturally, not being able to have it dyed kinda crushed my soul. And that's where we pick up.

My last hair-dying endeavor was last August (REALLY? THAT LONG AGO?!?!?!?) and I actually still have slightly green tips. -ish.

So here I am. Dying to dye my hair again (heh. Puns).

*unfortunately I can't  guarantee the hair change happening, as I also have a wonderful mom who doesn't like my hair dyed as much as she likes it blonde. Alas*

Here's where you come in! I have a few ideas of colors/styles, and I need your input!

1. Purple dip-dye

This is what I was originally leaning towards, but now I'm not so sure. 

2. Blue/ turquoise

In a perfect world (aka a world where my mom doesn't want me to dye all of my hair), this is what I would get. No hesitation. I LOVE this one so incredibly much. <3

3. Silver to turquoise

Yes. So much yes.

4. Blue dip-dye

This is the classic "Anna Hair" that I've done twice now. I still love it, but I need something different this time around.

Any others that you like/recommend for me? Realistically, only 1 or 4 are likely to happen, but I would do 2 or 3 in an instant. Now just to convince my mom... 

So there you have it! Please give me your opinions!!

Live long and prosper and pray that my mom lets me dye my hair pretty colors. :3

Update (Sort of... Thanks, Google).

So, for some unknown reason, the internet decided to publish some weird draft of a previous post and them promptly delete it... Like, really, internet? 

So here I am. giving you a 10 second summery of what it said.

Thank you to all my friends who care about me and checked in! I'm doing a bit better now. :)

The 12th was my last day at Tractor Supply for reasons. Yes, I do kinda miss it in a sentimental kind of way.

I was gone in Silt, CO for 5 days, so that gave me some energy.

My birthday is in 3 days (July 21st), and I'll be 18 (yay).

I'm thinking of dying my hair again (this wasn't in my original post, and there will be a post on that later)!

I think that was pretty much it.

Lots of exciting things going on!

I may post more tonight, so please don't be mad if I spam you. I've had a lot on my mind as of late.

Live long and prosper! I'll try to stop being mad at Google for messing with my posts... *gives Google the death glare*

Hurt

*****Disclaimer*****

This is a guest post by my current depressed state. If you wish to continue and learn more about what's going on in my head, please do. If you're happy with your impression of me, I suggest you read further into what's going on. Feel free to message me, ask questions, whatever, but please also understand that this is the me that has been roaming this Earth for the past 2 months. No, I'm not exactly okay, but I'm getting there.

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Yeah, it hurts.

It hurts when your "friends" don't see (or choose not to see) what you're going through, and choose to leave you out where you would otherwise be welcome.

It hurts to watch your mom and so many people whom you love get trampled on and thrown away, and not know the reason.

It hurts when there's so much going on and you're trying to stay neutral, but constantly feel a pain in your chest like your heart is being ripped to pieces.

It hurts to have anxiety attacks for no reason.

I'm hurt by the situations that are going on.

It hurts to lie in bed every night, wondering if you made the right choices. Wondering why you're having such a hard time in this life. Wondering if things will get better.

It hurts when you start to wonder if you can really trust your friends again, or if it'll be the same situation that has torn your family's friendships apart time and time again.

It hurts when you have no one to turn to because you find yourself putting on a mask every time you see your friends, in fear that they'll misunderstand.

It hurts to never be able to truly have fun, because there's a voice in your head that's constantly reminding you of all the mistakes- all of your problems and stress- that cause you to spiral downwards again. 

Life hurts like nothing else.

The best we can do is attempt to get through it.

Do our best, and give happiness a fighting chance.

But when happiness is hard to find, you have to keep fighting.

I guess that's the only thing to do. Hope it gets better. Hold out for when you can truly be happy again. Because for me, it doesn't feel like it'll be soon.

Live long and prosper.

That's it.